It took forever 
I finally know 
I know what i had been trying to find
and as ironic it was, it was always right in my face
My reflection my own my everything
I'm back 
I made it through the shit that took me away 
A demon I sware
but look at me now
Beats in my ears
Head held high 
A little less sigh
So many words to write and inspirering moments that need to be repeated
Who fucking cares if you still read
Let me do this cause i can

Im an apprentic in my own life
and it KICKS ASS!

To figure out is to have a thrill
a break and a re-connection of old habits
habits to never be broken

My thrill
Im back a full force effect
an update Daily HELL NO!
changing in words
a beat we can all remember
a little something to say this is me
this is my life..................

A Scribble

Holy fuck its been a while...

OK kids ive been busy and trust me i love that you are all here and checkin out my site and there will be huge updates soon... Just let me get my shit together..

Later

Written laugher
freedom
The word doent even begin to cover what i feel
stranded yet free
i can see wht was wrong and what must be done
stand strong and be firm
No one can take this from me
i see you
how can one word make all just disapear
wait there was nothing before the beginning
a year and some has passed
is it time to say i tryed
time to say goodbye?
Shit no one knows
a life so well worn on the shoulder with the chip i hold so deeply
i will never show you everything but i will try
i guess this means its started a new beginning
more then one coversation
fatal error
crash and burn sensation
i love this life

Some days i remember
others i forget
gotta have the worst to get the best
Missing what i had
loving what is now
Memories of weakness
Sight through sounds
Thoughts of misciff
That could get me killed
Lovely breath burning the cold air
All five sences designed to dispare

Rattle little brain tickle
Let my phone ring
Sheer depretness or is it desire?
A wonder what a mind can say when it alone
When its on the verge of breaking free
Time trails all skills thoughout this mystery 
A doctor once said back away or get medicated
The answer...
a love of life or a love of likeness
One way or the other this is my reality 
A normal way for me to feel my medication
My brain knows whats happening now
My heart can feel the beats
Trickle down the center of the earth
Such a high majority of complet willingness to leave
Leave what
Will it not be found again in another life
In another world
Fear filled hopes and dead dreams 
A laughter of another voice inside this medicated head
This medicated head
This medicated head
Medicated?
Wrong
Reality
My world
My answer lie beneath the surface to wonder which way was up
The sence is made through this fortune cookie
A rambling thought could go on forever
If i say one more time do you think you'll understand
Do you think you can look through the bottled water and see my reflection

Another mirror to be broken
Another Laughter to start
A human hand to lean to
Once and forever

Question the questions i have in my head
Specialty is only a justification to what may be but its never possible
A long time veiw of what was...Once
I finally found the loop hole
Now i must figure out what to do
How did i get myself into this?
Should i stay?
Fight my temptaions
And laugh at urges
Amazing without a grace?
Every morning... a Beautiful smile 
A laugh that could kill
Theres my problem.. Could Kill
Could Kill?
A rambling thought of continues trends
Mod.. definitly the latest and greatest
Maybe if I look hard enough.. squint my eyes.. and stair into the sun for ten minute before
You will be everything and more
Everything to what means to me
Final process with a slight sigh
Am i going to always be the one to question every move
Every breath seems like its the last
Panic and anxiety
I did good
At least i can say that....

Physical frustration
Lack of immunity
Love for a better word
Sorrow submissions
A fearful night
A passion and a dream can be interupted by the smallest of foot steps
Shortness of breath
Yell just a little louder
Walk away.. as if you really could
Fuck up your life and say it was someone else
Fuck up what you finally got
Or maybe
If your having an off day
It wont happen the way you think
It will live on
Sweet sorrow of submission
You know me to well
Or is it the i know you to well?
Love for a better word
A light glance from the near sighted future